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Have you ever experience the feeling of being lost and forgotten? Feeling lonely and abandoned? Betrayed by your tears and fake smile?

These feelings are not foreign, for some they are very well masked and deep buried and for some they are very superficial. People constantly lead you to believe that you have everyone’s company and support but the fear of being left all alone, looking at the back of the person walking away from you, lingers. You are scared of the past repeating itself, scared that when you need someone the most they will just make a face at you and walk away. Sometime you are scared that by expressing what’s running through your mind you will be portrayed as weak and incapable of handling their emotions, and people will judge you. You are scared that if you constantly let yourself drown in the pool of your sorrows, people will eventually get tired and won’t rescue you.

You want someone to talk to, but you don’t want to burden them with your unnecessary sadness and stupid insecurity problems. But at times you even think that it is highly impossible for someone to understand what you’re going through thus making you feel deserted, again. But letting your feelings out helps reduce the pain and sharing your misery with someone somehow helps bring a smile on your face because you realize you are bugging and irritating the person and just to cheer them up and end the topic, you smile.

I don’t know how to conclude this post, and I don’t know what more to write, so I’ll just see you later alligators.