Life of a Young Girl -Part 4.

Slowly she was fading away, disappearing from this world. With each passing moment she was diminishing, curling and retreating into her shell. She was backing away from her problems because no matter how much she tried, she could never find the treasure chest containing all the solutions to her problems.

Optimistic nature had long vanished and pessimism had taken its place.

The hope of being happy had long cleared and the future to remain sad was in view.
The faith in finding success and prosperity had vanished and belief in downfall had been established.

Slowly while she was swimming in the wide ocean, she came upon the thought, what if she swam across the ocean far away floating and washing away with the tide and got lost? What if she the drifted into a dreamless sleep and all she savored was the briny taste of water entering her lung via the mouth and inhaled the brackish essence of the sea water clouding her senses?  What if during the course she became handicapped, numb and lost the perceptibility of her surroundings?

These thoughts were overwhelming and tragic. They were tempting and were magnetic, attracting her, her heart crying out in desperation wanting to be set free like a bird. But she decided to be audacious. She decided to give up on finding the solutions but not on life.

She decided to lead a life where every morning was cloudy.
She decided to lead a life where the ray of hope had been cloaked.
She decided to lead a life where credence has extinguished.
She decided to lead a life where there were shadows of her demons.
A life where she had no answers but just questions.
Not solutions but just problems.