Sorry.

When you hurt someone whom you care about the most, there are no amounts of drinks that can help wash down the guilt and there is no amount of ice cream that can numb the pain.

The damage has been done. The scar has been carved and all the apologies in the world seem to be less. Tears are few to express the hurt that one is going through. No matter how wide your smile is or how enthusiastic and lively your “Hello” is, the fear of the past repeating itself, always lingers like a shadow.

You can’t be selfish and expect that person to be there by your side and care for you, make you smile when you are low help you and support you, and be the pillow to your tears when YOU in return are just going to hurt them, ignore them and be mean to them even if you don’t intend to do so.

I have been this type of a friend and hurt the person I care about the most and somehow I just can’t let go of the thought that I was capable of doing something like this, which I had never imagined in my whole life.

So, my bestie I know I am not the perfect or the best friend you would have ever wanted and I am sorry for that. For causing you the pain.

Sorry.

Love,
-C